The actual Pain of Grief

I’ve never felt so much pain in my life. Every joint in my body hurts from the rain, my head hurts from crying, my heart hurts from consoling my children for the last 2 hours while they cried themselves to sleep. I am trying so hard to be strong for Christmas tomorrow but I’m pretty much over it. I’ve only slept 2.5 hours in the last 40 hours because every time I close my eyes I see the hospital view I had at the end. I just had to confirm it has only been 16 hours since she has been gone because it feels like days. I know the grieving process takes eternity, but with kids it feels like it is going to take longer than eternity. I am trying to be as positive as possible, and things will get better with time, but right now I cannot see an end to the pain.

“I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13